Adele got candid with Vanity Fair for the magazine’s December 2016 issue, the 10-time Grammy winner talked about motherhood, postpartum depression, and, of course, Beyoncé.
The photo shoot features the singer in some of the most striking looks we’ve ever seen her wear, from a red gown billowing in the wind to an embellished tulle dress.
Here’s what she told the magazine about her postpartum depression:
“My boyfriend said I should talk to other women who were pregnant, and I said, ‘F— that, I ain’t hanging around with a f—ing bunch of mothers,’” she said of her 2012 pregnancy. “Then, without realizing it, I was gravitating towards pregnant women and other women with children, because I found they’re a bit more patient. You’ll be talking to someone, but you’re not really listening, because you’re so f—ing tired.”
She added, “My friends who didn’t have kids would get annoyed with me, whereas I knew I could just sit there and chat absolute mush with my friends who had children, and we wouldn’t judge each other.”
Adele then opened up about the many forms postpartum depression can take and how it can happen to any mother.
“My knowledge of postpartum — or post-natal, as we call it in England — is that you don’t want to be with your child; you’re worried you might hurt your child; you’re worried you weren’t doing a good job. But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life. It can come in many different forms. Eventually I just said, I’m going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the f— I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, ‘Really? Don’t you feel bad?’ I said, I do, but not as bad as I’d feel if I didn’t do it.”
The singer also spoke about her admiration for Beyoncé, someone she said she’s loved “for years.” “I like her humor, but she’s a f—ing great singer, a really amazing singer,” she said. “When I watched her show, I felt like I was really watching the last legend. No one’s made like that anymore.”