This is for you and everyone else going through this continuous fight of the will!
You are going to do great I promise you. The thoughts of despair would be constant no doubt about that, but there’s always that still gentle voice steering you to the light.
All you need to do is remember to listen to it once in a while by going into your silent safe place. Close your eyes, take a deep breath. Believe.
Get away from the noise my dear, it has been all set up in a way to distract you. You need Books, you need people who inspire you to be what you want to become, you need to actually Read those books! Read hunnie, like your life depends on it because it does!
And one day when you have finally attained a level of success that correlates to what success means to you, you gotta be willing to share all the knowledge you have attained and inspire others to Greatness like you.